Disappointment

I've been disappointed many many times before. About you, about them, about myself.

And a girl can hold on for only so long.

Sometimes...

I just feel like giving up, like stopping every effort, like doing nothing in the end to avoid feeling disappointed again.

Most of the time, I feel as though I've disappointed my parents. They've put an obscene amount of hope on me that sometimes I feel as though I can't breathe. I feel as though I can't even make my own decisions. 

I'm just asking for a reprieve, some space to breathe, some space to be me. 

Love,

Hany Shah Al-Edruce