I don't know.

Sometimes, I can't seem to get anything right.

Sometimes I feel as if I do everything wrong. I haven't the slightest clue why. You get yelled at and lectured and you feel so down, that it's as if you're suffocating and can't breathe. Somedays I just feel as if I'm annoying everybody just by being present. I don't know. It's like I don't know what I'm doing. What am I even doin with my life ? I'm very scared, and I feel very small. It makes me want to cry. I can't dovthis anymore. I just can't. 

Loves,

Hany Shah Al Edruce.

Disappointment

I've been disappointed many many times before. About you, about them, about myself.

And a girl can hold on for only so long.

Sometimes...

I just feel like giving up, like stopping every effort, like doing nothing in the end to avoid feeling disappointed again.

Most of the time, I feel as though I've disappointed my parents. They've put an obscene amount of hope on me that sometimes I feel as though I can't breathe. I feel as though I can't even make my own decisions. 

I'm just asking for a reprieve, some space to breathe, some space to be me. 

Love,

Hany Shah Al-Edruce