rapat dan segan .

Kalau baca tajuk post memang everyone akan tertanya tanya apa yang hanim merepek repek ni kan ? anywy there's this guy that i've just met . He's a friend of my classmate . Dia student part 2 , so sama baya laa . Anyway dia orang melaka .

I've just known him for at least a week , and to me he's kinda nice . But ntah kenapa i'm kinda shy with him at this early stage . Segan weeeeeyh ! Ntah tak tau la kenapa kan kan . Lagipun dia part 2 so he's like my senior . Saya jadi lagi la segaaaaan ! Dia sweet tapi saya tak tahu sama ada nak suka dia atau tidak . Takut nak couple lagi . Dah SERIK terlalu dependent dekat seorang lelaki . SERIK DAH . Lagi satu sebab kan dah selalu baca novel about love , about love yang di exaggerate kan , love yang di gembar gembur kan , love yang teramat sangat romantic , love yang terlalu di besar besar kan . Harapan jadi terlalu tinggi untuk dapat boyfriend yang terlalu perfect . Dengan sebab ini , I'm afraid of falling in love again . Everytime I akan suka someone, everytime rapat ja , there's always something in my mind yang akan buat I jauhkan diri from that person . Sad isn't it ? It's like a phobia . A freakin-stupid phobia . n_n

Nak tau soomething ? Ilikehimbuti'mnotsureifishouldorifishouldn't.

That's what i think .

Moving on, Anym just nak kata yang anym memang teramat sangat terasa hati dengan awak . Awak kata nak tau pasal crita kita sebab dah duduk level lain la, sebab masing masing dah busy la but then bila time kita tengah cerita kat awk, awk bukannya pay attetion pun . Awak jumpa kawan lain, kita awak buat tak tau ja kan ? kan ? Awak perasan tak ? Anyway kita bukan nak halang awak kawan dengan orang lain, but at the same time kalau betul awak take care, buat la dengan cara yang betul . Sedih lagi kita bila awak tinggalkan macamtu ja, daripada awak tak kisah pasal kita langsung .

Satu lagi, pasal =( . Anym ada buat salah ke ? Dulu rapat jaaa . Now sometimes tegur pun tak nak . Bila time tegur pun macam nak tak nak ja . Ok la . Tak kisah la kalau tak nak kawan . Takkan anym nak paksa orang kawan dengan anym kan kan ? Takpe la .

Apape pun anym mintak maaf atas apa salah yang Anym dah buat dekat korg . Maybe korg salah anggap or maybe cara korg lain daripada cara anym and kita tak boleh ngam. Tak kisah la .

Anym mintak maaf .

loves,

anym

sungguh terasa hati .

kalau dah sampai every girl pun kau layan siapa yang tak terasa babe ? i'm the type yang , kalau kau nak suka aku , suka aku ja .tak yah nak layan orang lain . Kalau tak aku reject terus ja . Jangan nak carik aku lagi dah la lepas aku reject tu . To players out there , jangan sampai hati seorang perempuan tu remuk sebab kau . Sekali dia target kau , habis lah kau . Kau jatuh atas tangan dia macam tuuu aja . So tak yah nak bajet macho and layaaan ja semua perempuan yang ada ok .

Perempuan boleh buat apa sahaja bila dia sakit hati .

p/s ; jangan sampai aku target kau .

merempat .

hehehe . kalau baca tajuk post ni mesti korg terkejut kan kan ? anywy bukan nya apa pun . it's just dah 4 hari saya menginap di bilik classmate saya iaitu El . n_n

bilik ni ada tiga org ja so anym and arin suka datang memeriahkan bilik ini . Tapi sometimes tu takut jugak kalau orang menyampah kita selalu datang sini . InsyaAllah diorg okay kot .

Haaaa lagi satu ! Kepada roommates anym yang tersayang , Tiera Med , Piqa Mya , ngan Fatin !

Aku dah start rindu korg ! nnt aku blik yeee . Duduk sini buat assignment ooo ! bnyk gila , nnt apapehal txt or call aku yee ! Jangan plak x bgtau . n_n

Aku kat Nobel je . Tak jauh puun . ^_^

p/s ; Booooosaaaaaan ! nak baliiiiiiiiiiik !

as a student .

memang as a student kita kena banyak presentation and such , but kalau satu topik tu untuk everyone to perform , benda tu dah jadi boring la .

This is our situation in CTU class . Ustazah terlupa nak bahagi bahagi , jadi everyone kena present benda yang sama . Jadi now kebanyakan kami semua sudah mula berbicara dengan diri sendiri ,

you know how it is . Budak budak student kalau dah boring tak pay attention la . Bleeeeeeeeeeeeehh . Nak tunjuk gambar kat everyone, tapi tiba tiba YouCam tak boleh bukaakk ! Sediiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiih !

Nanti nak kena bagitau akak ni !

Ciecie , my laptop punya camera sudah losak looo , apa mau buat ni ? Gimana saya mau take pictures ? Soooo Sad !

-.-"

period .

suprisingly .

Today surprisingly, i can answer my Management Quiz . Rasa nya ooook koooot . But oh what the hell . Before tu pulak got Accounts class , we got our quizzes back . I got 29/34 . What do you think ? High ? Low ? Hmmm . I think to me it's lower then I expected so better do more exercises Hanim ! You have to make you're parents PROUD ! Ok so moving on .

I'm on my period and damnit if it didn't hurt ! Seriously it's like so annoying ! I don't know if it's true but some people say period pain is only half of the pain when you give birth . You know time nak beranak nanti ? Haaa sakit period ni baru sikit jaa . Goooosssh ! I hope it ain't true sebab time period ni pun da rasa macam merana gilaaaaaaa ! Anyway leaving that topic now and moving on to my health . I've been sneezing for almost five days noooow . What am I suppose to do ? My head is aching because i keep blowing my nose and now i feel like my nose is stuck ! Makan ubat pun tak hilang and I feel like almost coming down with a fever . And tomorrow there's this In-freakin-saniah program and I'm suppose to go feeling this crappy ? haaaaaaaaa !

Allah, could you please let me be healthy ? at least for tomorrow and ahad ?

Anyway, right now I've jut finish taking out my kain from the washing machine next lvel maklum lah basuh baju seminggu sekali . I've also just shawored and now I dah wangi . All that's left to do is eat ! n_n

alone .

orang cakap dalam dunia ni hidup mesti berteman dan bersahabat .

tapi bagi saya, better i'm alone rather then be in a crowd of back-stabbing friends .

life is tough , i admit . but life is tougher with these kind of friends . I'd rather be alone daripada melepak dengan kawan kawan yang penting kan diri sendiri . Maybe I myself is selfish . But let me tell you something, you need to be selfish at times to achieve what you want . If you always care what others say , it might bring you down . It might tear you apart . It might make you loss in a world of self pity . So better you think of yourself rather than think of what they say .

Staying here at Lendu, I've encounter lots of different kind of people . Back-stabbers, two-faces, even liars in the face of innocent little angels . So the only way i know how to survive is to trust my self and only me . Dad & Mom are hoping the best from me . I love them and i want to do my best for them . Allah i hope you can hear me . I know I'm not the best of Muslims , but please hear my prayers . You're the only ONE I can ask for help, and you'll ALWAYS be the ONLY one I ask for help .

Allah almighty ,

Hear my prayers, straight from the heart . Open the way for me to survive here . Tabah kan hati dan semangat ku untuk terus berada di sini . Beri kan keselamatan terhadap ibu bapa dan keluarga ku yang berada di rumah . Beri kan juga keselamatan diri ku yang hidup di dunia-Mu ini . Ya Allah , aku harap kau berikan aku kekuatan untuk membuat ibu bapa ku bangga atas pencapaian ku . Makbulkan lah doa hamba Mu ini , ini sahaja yang ku minta .

Amin .

I hope, no I pray that everything is going to be alright .

how am i suppose to do that .

how did you think i was suppose to just sit there and watch ?

how did you think i was suppose to just shut up and listen ?

how did you think i was suppose to just follow what you say and be happy ?

that's the problem ; you DIDN'T think .

i'm stronger than this .

i'm better than this .

i'm tougher than this .

and the best part is , you're NOTHING like me .

stressed out .

husssssshhh . Tension nya kena balik Lendu hariniii ! Penat nya rasa badan . Assignment maths and akaun tak siap lagi . Janji nak buat dgn friends kejap lagi , tapi rasa macam malas nak pergi . Sebab nanti kalau buat ramai ramai nanti , mesti tiru bukan buat sendiri . hmmm . Macam mana eeh ?

Kemalasan yang melanda teramat kuat . Temptation untuk baring di atas katil dan melelapkan mata amat sangat tempting ! ya Allah , kenapa lah aku ni malas sangat yee ?

Takpe lah . Apapahal aku nak siapkn maths dengan akaun dulu . Later dudes n_n

love

anym

updated .

just updating while i have time peeps ! ni haa . nak letak la pulak gamba happenings dekat ini pulak . Tadi arrived at about 4++ p.m. Now tgh duduk lepak lepak makan and everything , some of the 'anak daras' are swimming in the pool outside . Now semua dah tergolek telantang . hehe . Just see the pictures babies !

we're just an ordinary family that eats together !

p/s ; now saya nak tidooo .

Chinese New Year .

hello hello ~!

This year I welcome February with CNY and Family Day !

Actually now I'm, I mean WE are on our way to A Famosa for our annual family day ! On my mothers' side that is . Though this year one of my aunt's family can't make it because her husbands' sister is getting married . Meaning we don't have an events planner so we just tried to go with the flow . Akak bawak Saidina and Sahibba to play . I don't know whether it would be fun or not . Sooo, just wish us luck ! Hope we will have fun this three days !

p/s ; will update later with pictures !

sumpah sexxxay !

ya Allah kenapa la kau bagi aku minat orang sexy sexy ni ! susah hidup akkuuu !

Big Bang's GD & TOP adalah the most sexiest men ALIVE !

tak percaya ? cuba tengok video clip baru diorang 'Baby Goodnight' ! Guaranteed caiiiiiir habis ! hiiiiiiish . Jealous aku dekat minah dua ekor dalam mv tuu ! really really wish it was me ! n_n

anywy i don't freakin care ! i'm changing my blogs' song to that song ! I CAN'T HELP IT !

they are too freakin HOT for me !

GD stop smiling at that girl honey . She's not worth it .

and TOP baby your eyes melt me !

Pleassse excuse my fandom tapi ini adalah salah satu part penting dalam hidup saya . Without music i'm dead . DEAD i tell ya ! So sesiapa yang nak jadi boyfriend saya and nak tahu apa characteristics that i want, amik la GD & TOP sebagai panduan ! kiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~!

amat amat lah bertuah aku kalau dapat boyfie yang macam ini !

Ya Allah ya tuhan ku ! Bila nak kasi I boyfie ni ? I nak yang macam GD & TOP keyh ?

hihihi . n_n

sexy people !

p/s ; siapa yang tertarik nak tengok music video 'Baby Goodnight', sila rujuk ke bahagian sebelah kiri blog saya . Jika anda ada dengar lagu romantik yang berkumandang, haaa itu la lagunya ! Kalau nak tengok MV tu lagi besar, klik ja icon youtube yang dalam MV tu keyh ! Enjoy!

love ; anym