Holidays & Assignments

Sad news ; TODAY is the last day of my holiday t-___-

Damn, that statement really killed all my joy. To add to my misery I haven't completed all of my assignments -__- Another kill joy statement don't you agree ??

Oh man, I'm gonna be soo dead . Dah la esok ada test Finance and I haven't studied, lepas tu Macro Economics punya test tak tau bila, tapi in this week and tak study lagi, lepas tu belum campur Statistics lagi. The fuck am I gonna dooooo ? Shit, sekarang ni puun , bukannya buat assignments, online lagi -__-

Macam mana, macam mana ? Haadoooi -__-

Malam ni maknanya tak tido la niiiii . Here's to sleepless nights t-___-

Loves,

Hany Al-Edruce

AFTER FOUR LONG MONTHS

As I scrolled down my blog, I noticed something ; I haven't updated for FOUR FREAKING MONTHS -.-"

How I have been neglecting you baby boo :'(

Anyways, let us move on to other more important things shall we ? Firstly, I do want to say, I've become slow in typing -.-" Though I can still type, just not as fast as before. It's sad reaaaaallly. Again, moving on. Sooooooooo, second semesters result came out, and as usual I knew my pointer would drop. In my defense ,it's not as if I did it on purpose though, I was sick when I was taking my exam papers. Can you blame me ? Well actually you can, because it was my fault I didn't study ahead of time but what can I do about it now ? Even though it's all water under the bridge, I still regret it though :( So this semester, I am trying really hard (not THAT hard really) to pay more attention to my studies :)

As for now, there are a lot of things that has happened over the course of 4 months and even I'm not that stupid to fit all of it in one post. It's just, I've been wanting to write again, for awhile now but I never could find the right time :( So now that I finally got the chance, there's really so many things I want to say, that I've kept inside, trying to voice it aloud .

So for now I guess this is all I can say without rambling on longer. I'm stopping here so I can go tweak my blog a bit, change the song maybe ? Or the background ? Oh but I really like the picture :)

All those other things that I want to say, well I'll just save it for the next entry shall I ?

Loves <3

anym

as days go by ,

as days go by, and time flies , i became lazier and lazier to update my blog . you know what bloggie ? you use to be my place to write everything . and i mean €€eveeerything . what happened to us ? doooon't worry aa . insyaallah i will always update you . i love you no matter what :)

Once you sit back and ponder...

Shite and everything that's WRONG !

Again this is just me being a bit dramatic while swatting bugs that are flying in front of the desktop . Anywaaay , talking about pondering and sitting back thinking , I've realized that I have been doing it a lot these past few days . And I do mean a LOT . I've been thinking about what I've done , what I'd like to change , you know the usual stuffs . I've come to realize that there are a looooot of things about myself that I'd like to change . But when I get that chance to change something , I can't . I can't because I'm scared . What ? I'm only human right . And EVERYONE is afraid of changes . Right now I'm just trying to get through everything one step at a time . Day by day . I guess that's the only thing I can do now . I'm 19 this year , and like it or not , I'll be 20 next year . Can you believe that ? Me , the girl who ALMOST everyone sees as a little kid ? Actually being 20 years old next year ?

I had a sheltered life as a kid and teenager . I wanted to grow out of that protection . But when the time actually comes for me to be a grown up , I feel the BIGGEST urge to run back to familiar stuffs . I know the family will always be supporting me in whatever I do , but I still can't help to think that I'm not , in the SLIGHTEST bit , ready to face the big WORLD . In times like these , I wish to be back in the protection of school . Having fun with friends , getting money from parents , and just being a KID again . Shit , thinking of facing the WORLD can make me break down in tears . Ya ALLAH , I hope you can give me courage in everything I do , in every decisions I made . Amin .

loves <3 ,

anym

7 days = a week =)

Love by Extremebiker

It's been a week already !

I've been Iqmal Izwan's girlfriend for a week now .

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

hahahahha , see how weird that sounds ? Well not that weird but sebab kan i haven't been anybody's girlfriend for almost three yeaars , suddenly than BOOM ! i'm his girlfriend alreaaaady .

Hahahah , so i'm sorry if it's a bit awkward for me to talk about him .

Okay so firstly , Kami sebaya . our birthday's the same date ! 10th APRIL 1992 . ^_^ . I met him three months ago but i won't tell hooooow . =)

He's a nice guy so faaar , meaning buat masa ni dia tak menunjukkan anything that could make me doubt him . It's still awall lagi pun , don't you think ?I'm still a bit shy around him . Idonotforthelifeofmeknowwhyyyy! Hahahah , seriously , kalau biasa biasa I am not the shy type of person . SERIOUSLY memang tak puuun ! n_n

He's not handsome but of course to me he's cute . And to me he acts sooo cute , different from he is with his friends . He calls me baby , and sometimes sayang . And sama la kalau if vice versa *-*

My friends say he's suits me sebab kitorang dua dua muka innocent ? bahahahha , like i'm that innocent . But well what other people see is different from what we see . Mungkin what I see is different . He's taaaalll ! Beza kami sangat jauh . Macam beza tinggi anym dengan Murni (classmate) . So kawan kawan kata kami amat comel =)

Now after three years of not being someone's girlfriend , i'm a bit awkward at times . Baby kita harap awak faham lah kan . And about benda pelik yang kita suka buat tu , I hope you can have a bit patience with me . Ingat kan what you said to me ? That awak akan sayang kita selama kita sayang awak kan ? So I'll try my best to love you baby . =)

loves,

anym ♥♥

patience

Just be patient little girl ,

you'll grow up someday ,

even when you don't want to ,

Someday you will .

cry your heart out

CRY YOUR HEART OUT

AND

YOU'LL BE FINE .

hold on tight , I'll always be there for you .

i wish SOMEONE would say that to me .

Hold Me Tight by purpLe-cLoud

I need a baby now , but i don't know if i can be someone's baby . It's been so long and fyi Mr. F , you've made me insecure . Maybe saya seseorang yang terlalu memilih , dan mungkin juga saya takut untuk fall in love again . I can't trust someone with my heart anymore . not even with my bestfriendss . Eyka baby , i'm sorry sebab awk jauuh and to me we're moving in different circles now . So saya dah tak rasa macam best friend awk lagi dah annd don't take this the wrong way , but i do still love you like my besfriend . There are too many memories , and i mean TOO MANY memories with you sayang . I won't ever forget that .

To you baby , I'm sorry . Maybe lately you perasan yang I macam tak layan you sangat . This is because I'm starting to shy away again . It's a sindrom . Kalau I rapat dengan seseorang , lama kelamaan I'll start to like him . But when i realized i do , I akan jauh kan diri dari orang tu . It's because I'm scared . I'll start to think , 'will he fit in with my friends ?', 'will i fit in with his friends ? ' , 'will he love me for me or for who he wants me to be ? ', 'will i try to change him ?' , 'should i be his girlfriend ?'

Everything is sooo scary to me again . Now you''ve requested that thing on facebook , hmmm . Baby sorry , I'm not ready . I tak tahu whether you'll understand , tapi I beg of you , Please try to understand me . I need you to understand . I do like you , I just need some time .

Anyway sekarang dah nak dekat finals , I haven't even started to study yet . Ya Allah hanim , when are you going to start ? Paling penting brush up more on your Accounts , tu paling teruk oook ! goooooosh ! n_n

Again to peoples i've mention , don't take what i say the wroong way ok . Especially you Fatin Zulaikha ! I love you and to you baby , I do like you ! ^_^

tribute to you

TRIBUTE TO YOU SYU BABY ,

"mood ; raising my MIDDLE finger ."

xoxo

Anym

march .

Goodbye FEBRUARY !

Hello MARCH !

no motive for writing, i'm jut trying to fill up my posts . That's all .

Anywy , moving on . Now, kenapa ya ? Febuari rasa macam sekejaaaaaaap ja berlalu ? Rasa macam baru dua hari lepas letak status dekat FB ;

Goodbye january , Hello February !

Hahahahha . Macamtu lah rasa dia . Kali ini, saya menjemput March dengan test yang melambak lambak , hadoooooi . Pagi tadi masuk class MGT lambat 5 minit . Dah tengah termengah mengah tiba- tiba ' Atah ' cakap ,

" Weyh , Miss nak buat test harini ! "

Anym dengan muka selambanya, yang still tak sempat nak kejar napas, cakap ,

" Buat ja laa ... "

Muka sumpah, penuh keredhaan , tapi bila Murni tanya Miss sampai chapter berapa , Miss jawab ,

" Sampai Marslow's Hierarchy . "

Baru la start cuak tu mendadak naiik . Hadooiii . Banyak gila kooot yang tak review balik . Nasib baik ada orang bagi idea bernas yang tidak boleh di mention di sini . Hahaha . Anyway , THANK YOU Miss ! For giving us the chance yeah ? First experience kot macam ni . Thanks Again . n_n

Now, nak tau apa sebab lambat masuk MGT ? Malam tadi study sampai pukul 3 pagi (2.30 ja rasa . lepas tu dah tido atas buku . ^_^) . Study apa ? Bussiness Maths . Untuk apa ? Untuk TEST Maths ! Gilaaaaaaaaa la . Penin penin ! Strreeeesss akak . Alhamdulillah boleh jawab tapi ada lah jugak dua ke tiga soalan yang terekat sikit . Sakitttttttt nya hatiiiii ! .

Sudah sudah redha ja . At least aku tak meniru . Sebenarnya nak jugak tiru tadi , tapi bila fikir balik baik anym buat sendiri . Sebab kalau tiru , nanti tak tau pencapaian diri macam mana kan ? kan ? Sampai bila nak tiru kan ? hmmm . tak pe lah . Now 7.40 p.m. Solat sudah . Malam ada class lagii . Account pulak tu . Itu pun kerja tak buat lagi ! Terlupa . n_n

Miss mintak ampun yaaa sebab tak buat kerja ! Nanti bincang bincang saya buat yaa . Mintaaaaak la esok takde Test CTU ! Ustazah tolooooong ya ? ^_^

rapat dan segan .

Kalau baca tajuk post memang everyone akan tertanya tanya apa yang hanim merepek repek ni kan ? anywy there's this guy that i've just met . He's a friend of my classmate . Dia student part 2 , so sama baya laa . Anyway dia orang melaka .

I've just known him for at least a week , and to me he's kinda nice . But ntah kenapa i'm kinda shy with him at this early stage . Segan weeeeeyh ! Ntah tak tau la kenapa kan kan . Lagipun dia part 2 so he's like my senior . Saya jadi lagi la segaaaaan ! Dia sweet tapi saya tak tahu sama ada nak suka dia atau tidak . Takut nak couple lagi . Dah SERIK terlalu dependent dekat seorang lelaki . SERIK DAH . Lagi satu sebab kan dah selalu baca novel about love , about love yang di exaggerate kan , love yang di gembar gembur kan , love yang teramat sangat romantic , love yang terlalu di besar besar kan . Harapan jadi terlalu tinggi untuk dapat boyfriend yang terlalu perfect . Dengan sebab ini , I'm afraid of falling in love again . Everytime I akan suka someone, everytime rapat ja , there's always something in my mind yang akan buat I jauhkan diri from that person . Sad isn't it ? It's like a phobia . A freakin-stupid phobia . n_n

Nak tau soomething ? Ilikehimbuti'mnotsureifishouldorifishouldn't.

That's what i think .

Moving on, Anym just nak kata yang anym memang teramat sangat terasa hati dengan awak . Awak kata nak tau pasal crita kita sebab dah duduk level lain la, sebab masing masing dah busy la but then bila time kita tengah cerita kat awk, awk bukannya pay attetion pun . Awak jumpa kawan lain, kita awak buat tak tau ja kan ? kan ? Awak perasan tak ? Anyway kita bukan nak halang awak kawan dengan orang lain, but at the same time kalau betul awak take care, buat la dengan cara yang betul . Sedih lagi kita bila awak tinggalkan macamtu ja, daripada awak tak kisah pasal kita langsung .

Satu lagi, pasal =( . Anym ada buat salah ke ? Dulu rapat jaaa . Now sometimes tegur pun tak nak . Bila time tegur pun macam nak tak nak ja . Ok la . Tak kisah la kalau tak nak kawan . Takkan anym nak paksa orang kawan dengan anym kan kan ? Takpe la .

Apape pun anym mintak maaf atas apa salah yang Anym dah buat dekat korg . Maybe korg salah anggap or maybe cara korg lain daripada cara anym and kita tak boleh ngam. Tak kisah la .

Anym mintak maaf .

loves,

anym

merempat .

hehehe . kalau baca tajuk post ni mesti korg terkejut kan kan ? anywy bukan nya apa pun . it's just dah 4 hari saya menginap di bilik classmate saya iaitu El . n_n

bilik ni ada tiga org ja so anym and arin suka datang memeriahkan bilik ini . Tapi sometimes tu takut jugak kalau orang menyampah kita selalu datang sini . InsyaAllah diorg okay kot .

Haaaa lagi satu ! Kepada roommates anym yang tersayang , Tiera Med , Piqa Mya , ngan Fatin !

Aku dah start rindu korg ! nnt aku blik yeee . Duduk sini buat assignment ooo ! bnyk gila , nnt apapehal txt or call aku yee ! Jangan plak x bgtau . n_n

Aku kat Nobel je . Tak jauh puun . ^_^

p/s ; Booooosaaaaaan ! nak baliiiiiiiiiiik !

as a student .

memang as a student kita kena banyak presentation and such , but kalau satu topik tu untuk everyone to perform , benda tu dah jadi boring la .

This is our situation in CTU class . Ustazah terlupa nak bahagi bahagi , jadi everyone kena present benda yang sama . Jadi now kebanyakan kami semua sudah mula berbicara dengan diri sendiri ,

you know how it is . Budak budak student kalau dah boring tak pay attention la . Bleeeeeeeeeeeeehh . Nak tunjuk gambar kat everyone, tapi tiba tiba YouCam tak boleh bukaakk ! Sediiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiih !

Nanti nak kena bagitau akak ni !

Ciecie , my laptop punya camera sudah losak looo , apa mau buat ni ? Gimana saya mau take pictures ? Soooo Sad !

-.-"

suprisingly .

Today surprisingly, i can answer my Management Quiz . Rasa nya ooook koooot . But oh what the hell . Before tu pulak got Accounts class , we got our quizzes back . I got 29/34 . What do you think ? High ? Low ? Hmmm . I think to me it's lower then I expected so better do more exercises Hanim ! You have to make you're parents PROUD ! Ok so moving on .

I'm on my period and damnit if it didn't hurt ! Seriously it's like so annoying ! I don't know if it's true but some people say period pain is only half of the pain when you give birth . You know time nak beranak nanti ? Haaa sakit period ni baru sikit jaa . Goooosssh ! I hope it ain't true sebab time period ni pun da rasa macam merana gilaaaaaaa ! Anyway leaving that topic now and moving on to my health . I've been sneezing for almost five days noooow . What am I suppose to do ? My head is aching because i keep blowing my nose and now i feel like my nose is stuck ! Makan ubat pun tak hilang and I feel like almost coming down with a fever . And tomorrow there's this In-freakin-saniah program and I'm suppose to go feeling this crappy ? haaaaaaaaa !

Allah, could you please let me be healthy ? at least for tomorrow and ahad ?

Anyway, right now I've jut finish taking out my kain from the washing machine next lvel maklum lah basuh baju seminggu sekali . I've also just shawored and now I dah wangi . All that's left to do is eat ! n_n

alone .

orang cakap dalam dunia ni hidup mesti berteman dan bersahabat .

tapi bagi saya, better i'm alone rather then be in a crowd of back-stabbing friends .

life is tough , i admit . but life is tougher with these kind of friends . I'd rather be alone daripada melepak dengan kawan kawan yang penting kan diri sendiri . Maybe I myself is selfish . But let me tell you something, you need to be selfish at times to achieve what you want . If you always care what others say , it might bring you down . It might tear you apart . It might make you loss in a world of self pity . So better you think of yourself rather than think of what they say .

Staying here at Lendu, I've encounter lots of different kind of people . Back-stabbers, two-faces, even liars in the face of innocent little angels . So the only way i know how to survive is to trust my self and only me . Dad & Mom are hoping the best from me . I love them and i want to do my best for them . Allah i hope you can hear me . I know I'm not the best of Muslims , but please hear my prayers . You're the only ONE I can ask for help, and you'll ALWAYS be the ONLY one I ask for help .

Allah almighty ,

Hear my prayers, straight from the heart . Open the way for me to survive here . Tabah kan hati dan semangat ku untuk terus berada di sini . Beri kan keselamatan terhadap ibu bapa dan keluarga ku yang berada di rumah . Beri kan juga keselamatan diri ku yang hidup di dunia-Mu ini . Ya Allah , aku harap kau berikan aku kekuatan untuk membuat ibu bapa ku bangga atas pencapaian ku . Makbulkan lah doa hamba Mu ini , ini sahaja yang ku minta .

Amin .

I hope, no I pray that everything is going to be alright .

how am i suppose to do that .

how did you think i was suppose to just sit there and watch ?

how did you think i was suppose to just shut up and listen ?

how did you think i was suppose to just follow what you say and be happy ?

that's the problem ; you DIDN'T think .

i'm stronger than this .

i'm better than this .

i'm tougher than this .

and the best part is , you're NOTHING like me .

stressed out .

husssssshhh . Tension nya kena balik Lendu hariniii ! Penat nya rasa badan . Assignment maths and akaun tak siap lagi . Janji nak buat dgn friends kejap lagi , tapi rasa macam malas nak pergi . Sebab nanti kalau buat ramai ramai nanti , mesti tiru bukan buat sendiri . hmmm . Macam mana eeh ?

Kemalasan yang melanda teramat kuat . Temptation untuk baring di atas katil dan melelapkan mata amat sangat tempting ! ya Allah , kenapa lah aku ni malas sangat yee ?

Takpe lah . Apapahal aku nak siapkn maths dengan akaun dulu . Later dudes n_n

love

anym

updated .

just updating while i have time peeps ! ni haa . nak letak la pulak gamba happenings dekat ini pulak . Tadi arrived at about 4++ p.m. Now tgh duduk lepak lepak makan and everything , some of the 'anak daras' are swimming in the pool outside . Now semua dah tergolek telantang . hehe . Just see the pictures babies !

we're just an ordinary family that eats together !

p/s ; now saya nak tidooo .

Chinese New Year .

hello hello ~!

This year I welcome February with CNY and Family Day !

Actually now I'm, I mean WE are on our way to A Famosa for our annual family day ! On my mothers' side that is . Though this year one of my aunt's family can't make it because her husbands' sister is getting married . Meaning we don't have an events planner so we just tried to go with the flow . Akak bawak Saidina and Sahibba to play . I don't know whether it would be fun or not . Sooo, just wish us luck ! Hope we will have fun this three days !

p/s ; will update later with pictures !

sumpah sexxxay !

ya Allah kenapa la kau bagi aku minat orang sexy sexy ni ! susah hidup akkuuu !

Big Bang's GD & TOP adalah the most sexiest men ALIVE !

tak percaya ? cuba tengok video clip baru diorang 'Baby Goodnight' ! Guaranteed caiiiiiir habis ! hiiiiiiish . Jealous aku dekat minah dua ekor dalam mv tuu ! really really wish it was me ! n_n

anywy i don't freakin care ! i'm changing my blogs' song to that song ! I CAN'T HELP IT !

they are too freakin HOT for me !

GD stop smiling at that girl honey . She's not worth it .

and TOP baby your eyes melt me !

Pleassse excuse my fandom tapi ini adalah salah satu part penting dalam hidup saya . Without music i'm dead . DEAD i tell ya ! So sesiapa yang nak jadi boyfriend saya and nak tahu apa characteristics that i want, amik la GD & TOP sebagai panduan ! kiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~!

amat amat lah bertuah aku kalau dapat boyfie yang macam ini !

Ya Allah ya tuhan ku ! Bila nak kasi I boyfie ni ? I nak yang macam GD & TOP keyh ?

hihihi . n_n

sexy people !

p/s ; siapa yang tertarik nak tengok music video 'Baby Goodnight', sila rujuk ke bahagian sebelah kiri blog saya . Jika anda ada dengar lagu romantik yang berkumandang, haaa itu la lagunya ! Kalau nak tengok MV tu lagi besar, klik ja icon youtube yang dalam MV tu keyh ! Enjoy!

love ; anym